Monday, November 30, 2009

one step forward
two steps back
circles in my mind
chasing my own track
all these feelings of confusion
i just want to see clear
wanting to accept what i see in the mirror
bi polar feelings
like a fishing pole reeling
dragging in my face
feelings of disgrace
is just all in my head
maybe im just fine
thinking too much
most of the time
all of this thinking
productive maybe not
just trying to get somewhere i havnt been before

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

new beginnings

trying to start new
trying to start fresh
trying to turn a new leaf
hoping to minimize grief

my ways before have failed me
not gotten me very far
almost its as if...
i have grown in a bell jar

i was given all the guidance
what i thought were the right tools
but when i look at my life thus far
i simply feel like a fool.

maybe im too hard on myself
maybe its not that bad
maybe im writing this little blog
to clarify why i feel sad..

whatever the reason is
nature, nurture, drugs
im triyng to clean house
and find my inner love.